The 37-year-old tells on Instagram Vanessa that until now she was reluctant to write about her feelings, but that she wants to help others who also mourn the loss of a loved one.
“My brain refuses to accept that Kobe and Gigi are no longer there,” she writes in a video montage in which Gianna basketball plays with her father as a proud supporter by her side. “I cannot process it at the same time. It’s like trying to understand that Kobe is dead, but my body refuses to accept that my Gigi will never come back to me. “
Then she continues: “It feels wrong. Why am I able to wake up again when my baby girl doesn’t have that option? I am so angry. She had so many years ahead of her. “
Then she tells how difficult it is to be broken, but also to be a good mother to her other children. “Then I realize that I have to be strong for my three daughters. Angry that I can’t be with Kobe and Gigi, but grateful that I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri.
I know it’s normal what I feel. It is part of the grieving process. I only want to share this with people who have suffered such a loss. God, I wanted them to be here and this nightmare was over. “
It is still unclear why the helicopter crashed with the former basketball player, his daughter and seven others. According to the NTSB, the national security council in the United States, there is for the time being no evidence that the engines of the helicopter have refused service.
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